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This 29th.....

Myself is shaking to welcome what

people said at most as the gate of

'life begin'..

Yes it is trully said..by the oldiest long

long time ago..

We may believe it or not for free...but i am

mentioned the believe ones..

I am afraid just to imagine..

to describe..how it would be..

Since I did feel..all the stages I passed..all the stuffs I grabbed..

Were easy to come..and all were easy to get..

I did not even feel...how hard is the life should be...

God creates me like other human beings as a perfect creature..besides my

imperfection ones..

I am surrounded by the loving ones..parents and family...

They guide me to stick to the road should be..They gave me more than enough to

make it easier than should be...

That is why..I am not used to be heavy and tough..

In this 29th...My Lord..please telling me..how hard is the coming life should be..

If I had to know how..then I would settle up all the things before...

Unlike what I have passed in a part of the stages at past...my heart was bouncing so

quick..

When U gave me a thing that I was not settled in before...Yeah..that midnight..it was

like a nightmare..

But finally I realised that it was the real nightmare...U took the dearest of me

suddenly in a time..mama..

Shouting..Crying..Shaking...Shocking...all were getting in together at the same time...

Nobody may asked..why my Lord..why u took our dearest so quick..it was such an

unquestionable thing...it was Your

great decision my Lord...

Since one of my life pillars away..I could not stand in balance...my future step is

shamble..I am hobble..

Both my heart and my steps..since suddenly everything 'must'be changing all the

way...

I wonder my Lord..if the oldiest said..my 29th is the begin of people's life...

Then what I will gonna make then..Have the same feelings as my real nightmare or

even harder?...

If yes u make it harder my Lord..please guide me along the way I live...please telling me...

At least whispering me..to be ready facing the harder things at front...

I have nothing here my Lord..I know nothing but praying and crying..

I promise to make myself uplifted..to face the beginning of the life...for sure..with U

besides me my Lord..Ameen..